"there's no combination of words i could put on the back of a postcard
no song that i could sing but i can try for your heart.
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a, shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving."

better together, jack johnson

*sigh* i love it when ariel is on a normal schedule, when he's not working nights. even though he still doesn't have alot of time, it's better than no time!

i have been thinking more about sin and grace. i understand wanting to put off living a life of grace until you've had all the fun that you want to have. from a worldly point of view, there's no point in rejecting the things of the world when there is no material reward.

but the thing about grace and sin is that if i sacrifice the experience of fun or temporary fulfillment and instead choose to live a more temperate lifestyle, it's not an absence of fun or temporal fulfillment that takes place, but an upholding of real love in excess. if i choose to sacrifice a certain lifestyle, i'm not focusing on it becoming a deficit of any kind (like i'm missing out on something); i'm only focused on the fact that i am rejecting the temporal goods of this world in order to seek after a higher good, which ultimately results in having an excess of love, which is self-sacrifice. it's amazing that the more i practice true, sacrificial love, the more it increases in me, and that that love is not hallmark-love, but a virtue that lasts both here and eternally.

and that's what i want - i want that virtue so that i can live love, as an all-encompassing and always faithful spiritual virtue that will bring everyone eventually to an experience of the Lord.

but right now, i want a turkey ranch and swiss sub from quiznos. or some blueberries.