"lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you."

fix you, coldplay




the effects of the huge transition i'm going through from being single to being married just hit me last night. we were at a bar in ann arbor with mike and rebekah playing shuffleboard. and i was telling her all about registering for gifts, how tired i was from walking all day and how much fun it was to pick new things out - and then i said it.

our wine glasses.

up until that point, it hadn't really seemed natural for me to speak in the third person. things had not yet made the switch from being mine to being ours. i keep finding myself telling people what i'm doing this weekend instead of what we're doing. after i finally said it naturally, i started thinking about all of the changes i'll be going through this year.

graduating.

new job.

moving.

marriage.

pregnancy?

it's a bit daunting. it's highly intimidating. that's alot of change. and i don't always deal well with change. but i think it's different now that i have ariel. because it's not just forced change. i want these things to change. i want to move and get married and have little ponce's. not too excited about learning nfp . . . but the other changes i think i'm excited about.

plus, i belong with ariel. wherever he is, that place is my home. so i guess it's kind of like packing up all my stuff and going home. "only, to no home that i had ever known . . ."