wedding dress.
work.
brother.
procreation.



i went for a dress fitting yesterday. i love my wedding dress. it's perfect. it was just what i needed to get me through the week. at least, those were my thoughts when i was walking into the store with my mom.

enter the dressing room, put on bra and slip, call mom in to help me put on dress. step out onto platform. dress feels . . . . . .

loose.

after the first alterations are done, my mom could fit her whole hand down the back of it. *rolls eyes*

"are you sure it's altered right?"
"yeah, we took it in an inch at the corset."

i knew that i had lost weight. i was totally unaware of how much. so here's the dilemma; do i assume that i'm going to stay at 103 until the wedding and have the final alterations done, or do i try to pack on 10 lbs in a month and leave the alterations the way they are?

but i will say this, regardless that it was falling off, the transformation from regular every day scrubby kelly to cinderella is . . . . amazing. especially that it happens instantly.





most people who work nights gain weight because they eat to stay awake. but i lost weight. mostly because of stress, i don't eat when i'm stressed. and my job is stressing me out. great.





my older brother called this week. he's in seminary, so we don't get to talk to him very often, it's so exciting to hear his voice!

"good news and bad news."
"okay."
"good news - i'm being transferred to australia and new zealand! they're opening a school there and it's in foundation and i'm going to help with administration!

okay.

"bad news - i'm leaving the first week in august."
"why is that bad?"
"i won't get back until the second week in september. and i can't leave before that."

so.
he's not coming.
he's not coming to the wedding.
i haven't had time to cry about it yet.
or maybe i just don't have the energy at this point.
i just got pissed off.




babies . . . . . ariel said to me a couple of days ago, "do you realize that we could be pregnant three months from now?"

*gulp*




oh, and we received our first shower gift. wine glasses, pilsner glasses and a pitcher.

thrilling.
52 more days.