even though the sun is shining down on me
and i should feel about as happy as can be
i just got here and i already want to leave
it's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.

lonely day, phantom planet



anna mary and i had a starbucks date today. a middle aged red haired man came up to me and said, 'your daughter is so precious, she really is a spitting image of you.' i'm tired of explaining that she's my sister. . . yeah, i know, i'm too old to have such a young sibling . . . yes, my parents know what birth control is . . . i know, i look old enough to be her mother . . . so i just say 'thank you'.

usually at work during the night, i'm able to catch 15 mins of sleep here and there. not last night. i had a chart open for 6 hrs. i worked with the same family for six straight hours. the daughter was diagnosed with schizophrenia and the patient was imminently dying. how do you explain to a crazy person that her mom is dying? *sigh* it was awful.

wedding planning is . . . stagnant.

been listening to alot of bach lately, seems to help to clear my mind. when my mom gave birth to my siblings and i, she always requested to have classical music playing in the background to help her focus on her breathing. she majored in classical composition and conducting in college. so each one of us was born to a different composer, i was born to bach. and i'm having amy sing bach's ave at the wedding. if nothing else, the music at the wedding is going to rock, i'm pumped about it.