things that cross my mind daily now that i'm going to be a mom:

1. please stop kicking me.
2. i am still cool. just like a single person. from behind.
3. this plain bagel with no cream cheese or butter is the best thing i've ever tasted.
4. boy? or girl?
5. the meeting is longer than an hour? is there a bathroom nearby?
6. i love my husband.
7. only threw up five times. it's been a great day.


this week the baby started getting it's nourishment from the placenta. and sometimes i literally feel like the baby is sucking out all of my energy. because i eat pretty much all day and i still have no energy.

i think there's a reason that it takes nine-ish months for the baby to be born, because i feel like i need that amount of time to prepare to be a mom. i feel like i've already identified with that aspect of my life, and i've left the non-mom behind. which has changed the way that i look at so many things. more on that later . . . .

ariel is so excited for our first christmas. he's so cute, he's got something really wonderful planned for me and he's really proud of himself. i can't wait to see what it is!

as for me, i've not had the energy to prepare for this christmas, it's kind of thrown together, which i hate, but it's what i've got. presents are not wrapped, i'm not even totally done shopping . . . i'm just so tired. and puking doesn't make it easy either. but i'm really looking forward to the 23rd, ariel and i are having our own christmas on that day because we'll be travelling all of the other days.

merry christmas to everyone! we love you all and we've been so blessed by your love and friendship this year! may God bless you abundantly in the new year!