the best way out is always through.
- robert frost

i have never ever had to work hard to lose weight. in fact, now that i'm sitting here thinking about it, i haven't really had to work hard for things that most people struggle to attain. that fact is a blessing, although it doesn't mean that i've had an easy life.

never once have i struggled with any type of weight issue, and for that i'm grateful. i know too many women who have felt the pressure of the world deeply, the pressure that makes them hate the body that they've been given and feel trapped by it. i understand their struggle in a sympathetic sense because of my loved ones who have been affected by it, but i have no personal sense of it.

i'm not trying to lose weight for anybody else but myself. i want to be able to say that i'm back to my wedding weight. i want to know that i'm capable of working my butt off to stay in shape. ariel couldn't care less, but i know he'll appreciate it. my friends love me regardless. and the world can kiss my oversized butt. i want to exercise my self control, i want to be healthy for my children and i want to have a higher energy level.

i gained 45 lbs during my pregnancy. and 12 weeks later, i've shed all but 10 of it. but this last 10 lbs is killing me. and i'd like to say, 'no matter how hard i work for it . . .', but that wouldn't be true. because i'm not really working for it at all. well not until last week.

one of my friends doesn't eat any fried food or chocolate, among other things, to stay in shape.

i gave up fried food for three days, just to see how effective it is; i lost 4 lbs. which put me at 10 lbs above my pre-pregnancy weight.

so here are my resolutions to get rid of this pain-in-the-ass 10 lbs:

1. eat two small meals and one larger one per day.
2. drink lots of water.
3. walk four times a week for at least 30 mins. shopping doesn't count. neither does cleaning.
4. fried food once a week. (hey, rome wasn't built in a day)

because there isn't a way out of this but to go right through it, and to work my butt off for it.