i took a walk today. normally i walk quickly, partly because i don't want to talk to anyone, partly because my mom always told me that no one bothers a woman who walks briskly, but mostly because it justifies the oreos or cheetos i ate earlier.

i gotta get out of here
because i'm afraid that this complacency is something i can't shake.

but today i walked slowly, felt the sun on my face and took breaths that were just a bit too deep. the fresh air felt good in my lungs.

i still didn't want to be bothered, i just wanted to be alone.

even though there's no way of knowning where to go i promise i'm going

after 8 whole minutes, a cloud came and covered the sun. it was a giant cloud. total mood killer, i turned around and started to walk back. the sun is gone, and i'm over this. back to philosophy.

i had one foot through the front door, and the sun came out from behind the clouds. i turned around and smirked at the irony.
and i heard a little voice in my heart say,

"the sun wasn't gone. it was there the whole time."

leave a message on april 2nd, i'll be watching the season home opener.

1. cannonball, damian rice

stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
life taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball

2. bad day, daniel powter

well you need a blue sky holiday
the point is they laugh at what you say
and i don't need no carryin' on

3. come back to bed, john mayer

you can be mad in the morning,
i'll take back what i said
but don't leave me hanging alone here
it's cold baby, come back to bed

4. the hardest part, coldplay

and i tried to sing
but i couldn't think of anything
and that was the hardest part

5. carry me on my way, james taylor

I forget what to ask for, there isn't anything I haven't been given.
How could I wish for anything more as I am here living in heaven?
This moment in the sun to feel the wheel turning on.

6. chasing cars, snow patrol

i need your grace
to remind me
to find my own

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

7. like a star, corinne bailey rae

just like a star across my sky,
just like an angel off the page,
you have appeared to my life,
feel like i'll never be the same,
just like a song in my heart,
just like oil on my hands,
honour to love you