this was one of the longest weeks of my life.

i miss my husband. we barely saw each other this week. and it was one of those weeks that we needed to see each other to get through it.

we set the c-section date for june 10th. ariel's brother is getting married on june 7th. the c-section is actually only one week early. and that makes me a little nervous. if the baby came today, i would be okay with that. it's just that my body doesn't do what it should. and so i get nervous.

work is . . . . stressful. really stressful.

the baby is getting alot bigger and we're anxious for ariel to be able to feel it move, as i can feel the baby moving more and more every day.

we're stressing out majorly about where ariel is going to work after he is done in august. we have good options, but it's such a huge decision. and there's so much involved.

my clothes don't fit. i feel like a snowman - round all over the middle, a huge belly and huge boobs and tiny sticks for arms and legs. i feel like i look funny. but people just keep saying, 'oh, you're soooo cute. cute cute cute'. and that word doesn't make me very happy. maybe it's just that i'm not myself.

and i think i ate my entire weight this week. i was 110 when we got married. a week ago i was 114. today i am 118. four more pounds, and i will weigh more than i have ever weighed in my whole life.

i can't wait to go to colorado with ariel. i haven't been there in a very long time.

and i'm sooooo happy that the nausea is over. now if only i could fight this pain and fatigue . . . .