"a baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten and the future worth living for."


this was my first week at home by myself with izzy.
based on this past week, this is my wish list addressed to God for the years ahead.

1. longer arms
2. miraculously appearing diaper rags all over the house.
3. no lawn mowers, trash guys, trains, factories or anything else that makes loud noises.
4. ariel to be employed by a place that makes him sleep/relax at work so he is not just as tired as me when he comes home.
5. wind up toys that sing longer than 30 seconds. a 30 minute wind up toy would be great.
6. the ability to pick stuff up off the floor with my feet while holding a sleeping baby.
7. a finger to keep the paci in izzy's mouth. at all times.
8. x-ray vision to see through the diaper when she's done.
9. a third arm.
10. the invention of a drive thru grocery that just carries essentials. and included among those essentials should be ice cream.

my little girl is out in the living room right now with her grandma getting her diaper changed. and she has the hiccups, which she gets about five times a day. but she never cries, she's really patient with them.

i feel like i'm having an amazing recovery, considering that my abdomen was cut open and then sewn back together a week ago. the pain is minimal, the worst pain i had was in the hospital when my uterus was contracting back to a smaller size. well, and the cath - it wasn't so much painful as it was SO uncomfortable. but that was the best part about having a spinal for the c section, because once it started working, i couldn't feel anything from the chest down - including the cath. =)

my ob doc did sutures instead of staples, so it looks nicer. right now it just looks like a purple line with a little bit of red around it.

it's funny, a year ago, if someone would have told me how many people would see me naked on the day my baby was born, it might have been enough for me to have second thoughts about having kids so quickly. but on that day, i couldn't care less. partially because i couldn't wait to not be pregnant anymore, but mostly because i was so overjoyed at having just given birth to my little girl.

my relationship with ariel seems to have become more simple. it's amazing, you would think a baby would complicate things more, but it seems to me that when i see ariel loving izzy so much, i feel loved by him as well. and he does love her - sooooo much. and she loves her daddy, especially at the 10pm to midnight shift. i tried to hold her last night and get her to sleep, but she wouldn't have it. so i handed her off to ariel and she just sat in his arms and stared at him. so precious. i always told ariel that babies like him because he has such a calm sounding voice. for whatever reason, izzy LOVES her daddy. and i do too.

ariel's graduation is tomorrow, although he still has another month and a half until he's actually done. i'm so proud of all the hard work he has put into this. and i'm happy for him that his wife and new born baby will be there to support him.

it's 9:30 in the morning and i should go - my life revolves around my boobs now. uhh i mean my baby. who sees me as a pair of boobs.

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