last night ariel was carrying the baby's dresser from the car up to her room.

he got it out of the trunk, and manuevered it to the landing.

"babe!"

i rolled my eyes. i hope he doesn't think that i'm coming down there to help him carry that thing up the stairs.

i chose to pretend like i didn't hear him.

"babe! i need your help!"

*sigh*

"sweetie," i said kindly (i was actually surprised at how kind it sounded) as i got up from my seat and made my way over to the stairs, "i'm not sure how much i can help you."

and then my husband said the most honest thing i've ever heard him say.

"just cheer me on!"

=)

gas to pick up dresser = $20
ice cream for family who don't want money for dresser = $20
ariel shamlessly asking me to be proud of him = priceless

Everyday
Everyday
Everyday you save my life

Sometimes I swear I don’t know if I’m coming or going
But you always say something without even knowing
That I’m hanging on to your words with all of my might
And it’s alright, yeah I'm alright for one more night

Everyday
Everyday
Everyday
Everyday
Everyday
Everyday
Everyday you save me
You save me


i love my husband.
i love our little family.
my husband and my daughter are bringing new meaning to my life every single day.
i really don't know where i'd be without either one of them.
ariel knows my heart, and he takes better care of me than anyone ever has.
and our love incarnate, our little baby, is the most precious gift i've ever been given.
i'm a really lucky woman.

i. am. exausted.

baby has been making a habit of waking up at midnight and not sleeping until three. then she wakes again at five or so and is awake for another two hours. at around 10 she gets the hiccups. if i lay on one side, she kicks because that's the side her legs are on and i'm squishing them. if i lay on the other side, she kicks because she has so much room on the other side. (i have to invent reasons for her kicking. otherwise i get annoyed.) even when ariel is home and he puts his hand on my belly, he can't believe how strongly she kicks now. it's borderline painful. what is really painful are the contractions that i've had at night if i've been too active during the day. and i secretly hope every time they come that it will be the night that the baby is born. but i'm still pregnant. *sigh*

i miss ariel.
i wish the weather would clear up. although it is nice sleeping weather.
i want a drive thru grocery that sells just the essentials. including ice cream.
i miss my family.
i feel like i'm at a transitional point in my life that hasn't quite begun yet but that i have to prepare myself for now because i don't really know when it's coming.
i feel alot older than i am; but i'm hoping that my body will remember that it's only 23 when the baby comes, hopefully it will make it easier to get back into shape.

this change is completely different than when i got married. it feels more life changing. it's intimidating. and it's upon ariel and i now.

*sigh* baby has the hiccups. i'm telling her to hold her breath, but it's not working =)

today is the anniversary of my first date with ariel. =)

it's so funny to remember a time when we barely knew each other.



we were both afraid to let the other hear us pee so we would turn on the fan.
my face would turn bright red every time that he kissed me.
we emailed each other every single day.


but i knew that i loved him almost right away. i have never met any man who is so kind and gentle and sweet, and still strong and convicted and masculine. i knew that i wanted him to be the father of my children. i knew he would fit in perfectly with my family. i knew that i would do absolutely anything for him.

funny to think that our future is so uncertain now, but is so well planned. we had no idea what was in store for us, but looking back, every single step had been carefully watched and carefully planned by the Lord.

may 2006. first date.
december 2006. engaged.
september 2007. married.
september 2007. pregnant.
june 2008. baby.

makes me wonder what else is in store . . .